You know I like your writing. I should also mention that I think it's fascinating to read about your subject as it's told from the inside, not from someone supposedly analyzing objectively from the outside. So much more insight. It also makes me think we all must be on the "spectrum" somewhere. Yours is so extreme. I experience such a milder form (probably considered more a mood swing than a condition) but at that level I can still relate to the polarities you discuss. And I love the way your writing sounds like being the "subject" rather than the "victim," no matter how severe your symptoms. I thank you so much for your willingness to reveal this all so personally.